A New Discovery

Angels Comments


It's been about 3 years since I had my nervous breakdown and developed Tardive Dyskinesia. This road has been rather bumpy, but through friends and loves one I am able to cope.


Since my relapse a month ago. I am slowly returning to the beginning of my illness. That is not to say that I have lost hope or faith. I know what works for me. I know when I exercise I am better. I know that taking Clonazepam works. I am going to try to buy blue tinted sun glasses to see if I am better.


I have learned that as much as I love my sons, I have to let them live their own lives. They know that they only have one true mother. And I will be there should they call me. But I can no longer carry the burden of pain and disrespect.


I know that when I have a severe episode; I can take Benadryl. ( Don't try this if you get agitated or are allergic)  ***Consult your Neurologist.***


I was at a cricket store recently; I was trying to get a phone, because my condition has not improved much. I was so worried about communicating with my son that I didn't feel my legs giving out from under me. This is the third time in a month that my legs just don't want to cooperate.


So it's time for me to consult with my Neurologist. My legs actually turned inward and my arms as well. I looked like I had Cerebral Palsy. I was ashamed and sad all at the same time. I couldn't write my name. But I know that this illness directly connected to my emotions.


So while in San Antonio I purchased a Yoga CD at a Second Hand Bookstore for $2.00 brand new. I know that proper medication and exercise is key. Wearing dark blue glasses or light blue tinted glasses is a experiment, but worth a shot.


So I have found that when you don't use your limbs; you will lose the ability to use them properly. I say continue to try to fight TD and exercise with a family member. Take short walks at first. Find something to concentrate on. Read a book or play a game and concentrate. Practice spelling or writing,and start a journal. These are the things I found that work.


Keep believing that we will find a way to live better and pray that they find a cure.  Never give up. Never lose faith. Trust in a higher power.  And trust yourself.  Challenge yourself.  Fight for your health and well being. Search for answers to your questions and if you find something new please post it at "Grace A Mothers Journey" on Facebook.  Or leave a message here.


God bless you and yours
Donna C. Ledesma


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