Inspired!

February 28, 2010 - Sunday 

Inspired! Current mood:  luminous Category: Blogging Click Here for Religious Comments Life in itself comes with many trials and tribulations....  God knows that we all have a cross to bear.  But he also instills in us a WILL....   A WILL TO FIGHT FOR WHAT IS RIGHT AND FOR YOUR HAPPINESS.  Dreams are beautiful.  The best thing about dreaming is ATTAINING. And that is where I am now... I have attained my freedom, (no more guardian),  I have the ability to walk again (without dancing),  I have the ability to speak, (without crossing my mouth).  I no longer cross my head up and down and left to right.   My arms are no longer moving quickly and rigidly.  I have a clear head again and can speak clearly.  I no longer have to blink and nod to communicate.  I am not in a Mental Ward any more..... I have a diagnosis and medication to help me. I AM BACK!  I AM BACK...... Because I never stopped praying and asking for help.  Even in my darkest days.  When I was not in control of my body or my words.  I was still somewhere inside shouting!  "I WANT TO WAKE UP! PLEASE GOD WAKE ME UP!"   As the days went by I often wondered, " Is it evening? Morning? Midnight?.. "  Are my children safe?  Where are they?  Is my family safe... Where are they? ... Then on the sixth day I woke up!  God set me free from that awful nightmare!  He pulled me out on the tenth day.  Till this day I pray... I point up to the heavens and I call his name.  "Yahweh, Jehovah, My Jesus!......  Because I am Gods grace!   Gods grace was sufficient for me... Even in those dark days.... He was merciful... Since then I have been to rehab, fitness centers, learned to climb stairs, hold my head still by focusing and leaning it back up against the seat when I drive, talk about what really hurts me, dream of being a writer, going back to work. I have written an E-book.  "My Story A Mothers Journey..... "  I have opened a Corkin business page called:  Handmade Dreams .... Where I sell items that I made that helped me come back.  Stopped my ticks for a moment or for hours. I have reached out to people because that is instilled by God.  To show everyone... His grace is sufficient.  I have an apartment.... (His grace is sufficient), I have a loving family... ( His grace is sufficient),  I have food in my pantry and can cook it on my own. ( His grace is sufficient). Now I say again.  I am Gods GRACE!  I am here for my sons again.  I am here for my nieces and nephews,  I am here for my mother, brother and sisters.  I am FAITH----GODS GRACE---- AND HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR ME...... So be thankful....he doesn't make mistakes.... He makes miracles of us.... to show us the way... to give faith to others...... to be leaders.....and most of all be GOD FEARING... So in closing.... I will continue to shut my eyes, raise my hand in praise, sleep with the angels, sing a song that only god knows is for him.... And he will be my king and the rest shall follow.  My heart does not fail.... for I PUT MY TRUST IN THEE OH MY LORD. Be loving, be giving, Respect one another and rejoice... God has a plan for each of us... Sometimes you have to believe it will happen... And sometimes you have to make it happen...  Then TRUST GOD for the rest... May god bless you and all those you love... May you be blessed to see God house where there is a Mansion with many Mansions within it.  Where the street are made of gold.  And the lion and lamb are tender to one another.  Where you will neither thirst or hunger... Let your seeds be blessed from generation to generation like Abraham and Sarah...  Through them Abraham at 99 and Sarah at 90 years of age came generations of kings.... like Solomon, David and Jesus... Now do you see..... Gods grace is sufficient for you...follow your dreams and your heart.  Be leaders, set great examples.  Be the best at everything you do.  Because when you do.  You are actually glorifying GOD! With Peace and Love Donna Cynthia Ledesma  "Victorian Storage Trunk Hope Chest in Antiqued Plaid"