Thru my eyes

May 3, 2009 - Sunday 

Thru my eyes Current mood:  hopeful Category: Writing and Poetry   My life has changed considerably.  I have developed a disability that in some ways makes me feel weak.  I know that there are many people who have suffered far more then I.  But I want it noted that I have a disability - I'm not disabled.  I am still the same person inside.  I dream of better days and a better life.  Much of my independence is gone; but I am a persistent person.  I will not be defeated by illness.  I'm down not out.   Although I am a bit shaky now and I have trouble writing.  I am still cognitive and capable of driving, dancing, and singing.  I still love life and friends.  I miss dating, sharing a cup of coffee or salsa dancing with with friends.  I miss driving my own car and paying for my own phone. .  I miss college and my job at St. Vincents in New Mexico.  Where I was loved and respected by all. Now I take walks alone.  I exercise alone. I wait for company or my nieces and nephews.  But still, I smile and pretend everything is ok. I convince myself that having this disabilty is not an option. My family does their very best to protect and take care of me.  I love them for it.  But inside all I want is my independance. Again I have a disabilty.  I am not disabled!.......... Written By Donna C. Ledesma

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