Progress

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Well as of today I have improved some.  I have also come to realize that my condition is likely permanent.  The reason is because I still wake up with my head shaking only not as bad as before.  I still click and make noises with my mouth.  I'm still winking, crinkling my nose.  And at times I still have difficulty walking.  I notice if I don't take my medication, my condition is worse. I cross my mouth on occasion, mainly when nervous. And I can see that I will probably have to take the Clonazepam for the rest of my life.  I'm still hoping that I will eventually wean off the anti-depressant," Cymbalta. "   I know that I will need the Meloxicam for the rest of my life due to Osteoarthritis.  And Benadryl to help me sleep.  I am also taking Co Q-10 as much as possible as per my doctors instructions. At least its heart healthy.


Some days I feel normal and some days I can't get out of bed.  But every day is a new day and I try again.  I know that if I give up, there will be no hope for me.  I know that I have to keep exercising; because when I stop I start ticking again.  But I have also come to terms with my situation.


Acceptance is the hardest part of my inner struggles.  I want so much to be normal again in every sense of the word.  But what is done is done.  And I have to rise above it.  I have learned that despite my illness I still have power.  I have power over my world and the things that involve me.  That people only have the power over me that I allow them to have.


For anyone that is trying to get better. Whatever your situation may be.  Don't worry about today, or tomorrow or next week or next month.  Just get through today.  Today.... Today.... Today...




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Surround yourself with people that love you and truly care about your well being.  Start a blog, journal, a garden.  Learn something new.  Try something different.  Don't give up on yourself, your life, or Love.  It will come.  Just be patient.  Time doesn't always heal all wounds, but patients is most definitely a virtue.


Give your problems to god and let him take the reigns of your life.  Worrying only makes things worse.  Have faith, have courage and have a will to be the very best.  Don't give up searching for answers. Fight for your life!  You deserve a great life!


Smell a rose, look at nature and study the animals.  See the miracle of life.  And don't take your life for granted.  You have purpose and meaning.  What that may be is up to you.  But it is certainly something your very good at.  To each is appointed a gift from god.  It's something that comes natural to you.




Follow your dreams and your heart.  You can't go wrong.  You might have some disappointments along the way.  But at least you tried and you learned something.  But GET UP!  AND TRY AGAIN!



With Peace and Love
Donna C. Ledesma